Baby Sister

Song lyrics first written December 16th, 2007

Author’s Note: Don’t mind me, I’m just searching my ancient hoard for a song I wrote when I was sixteen about a hypothetical little sister. These song lyrics are meant to be something of a soft piano ballad, but I also imagined an electronic dance remix because that’s just how my brain works. I dug up this piece because I remember it being something I was proud of at the time and it does hit a squishy place in my soul to this day. You are invited to enjoy.

Endless alley, snowy cold,

Trials like rain, and toils so old,

Hopeless tears, Forgotten cries,

Little princess, barely alive,

Did you feel abandoned?

Did you try to walk alone?

Trying to find the path of heaven,

Just want to go home.

So baby sister, hold my hand,

And I promise we’ll make it through,

In the darkness, I’ll light a candle,

And I will be watching over you,

Baby sister, don’t be afraid,

Trust me to lead the way,

Baby sister, hold my hand,

And everything will be okay.

Moving forward may take all your faith,

And the sky seems not to give a spark of grace,

But though the road is hard and it seems so far,

Don’t forget how to hope and let time heal every scar.

Baby sister, hold my hand,

And I promise we’ll make it through,

In the darkness, I’ll light a candle,

And I will be watching over you,

Baby sister, don’t be afraid,

Trust me to lead the way,

Baby sister, hold my hand,

And everything will be okay.

Don’t dwell on times that are gone,

Stand your ground when it seems there will be no dawn,

To every night there is an end,

In every heartbreak, You have a friend.

Baby sister, hold my hand,

And I promise we’ll make it through,

In the darkness, I’ll light a candle,

And I will be watching over you,

Baby sister, don’t be afraid,

Trust me to lead the way,

Baby sister, hold my hand,

And everything will be okay.

Fairytale Princess

Song lyrics first written August 24th, 2012

Author’s Note: I wrote these lyrics while I was in intensive outpatient care for my first major depressive episode. It was my way of comforting myself, reminding myself that even the stories with the happiest of endings can be full of hardship and trial. Even though I felt like I had died, I held the promise of a full resurrection. I’ve been writing song lyrics to comfort myself since I was twelve, but to date this is the project I am most proud of and that feels the most personal. I hope you enjoy.

I am a fairytale princess

Trapped at the top of a stairless tower

My heart is wasted with my aguish

I fell prey to the curse’s power

I lost who I was meant to be

And there is no one coming to save me

Wrap me in chains and leave me to die

I will emerge like a butterfly

Tonight

I am

A fairytale princess

One day

I stand

Crowned upon my throne

I fight a war

It will be won

I have a kingdom

It will come

I am a fairytale princess

Lying in a coffin made of glass

The clock struck midnight while I waited

And it seems I’ve breathed my last

I ate the apple that poisoned my lips

And I’ve lost all hope of true love’s kiss

Prick my finger and lay me to sleep

This one last promise I will keep

Tonight

I am

A fairytale princess

One day

I stand

Crowned upon my throne

I fight a war

It will be won

I have a kingdom

It will come

In the real world

I’m just a girl

Swept away by the waves of agony

Lost in bleak reality

Slit my wrists and cried my hate

To the cruel twists and turns of fate

For the wishes I’d made

The dreams I’d obeyed

Stared in the mirror and despised my own face

Tore myself to pieces

To erase me without a trace

But today I’m still alive

Somehow I’ve survived

Locked in my tower

The curse losing its power

Rising from the deep

I awaken from my sleep

Maybe I’m naïve

Maybe I’m a silly little girl who just pretends

But I know

Yes, I know

How this story ends

Tonight

I am

A fairytale princess

One day

I stand

Crowned upon my throne

I fight a war

It will be won

I have a kingdom

It will come