Song lyrics first written August 24th, 2012
Author’s Note: I wrote these lyrics while I was in intensive outpatient care for my first major depressive episode. It was my way of comforting myself, reminding myself that even the stories with the happiest of endings can be full of hardship and trial. Even though I felt like I had died, I held the promise of a full resurrection. I’ve been writing song lyrics to comfort myself since I was twelve, but to date this is the project I am most proud of and that feels the most personal. I hope you enjoy.
I am a fairytale princess
Trapped at the top of a stairless tower
My heart is wasted with my aguish
I fell prey to the curse’s power
I lost who I was meant to be
And there is no one coming to save me
Wrap me in chains and leave me to die
I will emerge like a butterfly
Tonight
I am
A fairytale princess
One day
I stand
Crowned upon my throne
I fight a war
It will be won
I have a kingdom
It will come
I am a fairytale princess
Lying in a coffin made of glass
The clock struck midnight while I waited
And it seems I’ve breathed my last
I ate the apple that poisoned my lips
And I’ve lost all hope of true love’s kiss
Prick my finger and lay me to sleep
This one last promise I will keep
Tonight
I am
A fairytale princess
One day
I stand
Crowned upon my throne
I fight a war
It will be won
I have a kingdom
It will come
In the real world
I’m just a girl
Swept away by the waves of agony
Lost in bleak reality
Slit my wrists and cried my hate
To the cruel twists and turns of fate
For the wishes I’d made
The dreams I’d obeyed
Stared in the mirror and despised my own face
Tore myself to pieces
To erase me without a trace
But today I’m still alive
Somehow I’ve survived
Locked in my tower
The curse losing its power
Rising from the deep
I awaken from my sleep
Maybe I’m naïve
Maybe I’m a silly little girl who just pretends
But I know
Yes, I know
How this story ends
Tonight
I am
A fairytale princess
One day
I stand
Crowned upon my throne
I fight a war
It will be won
I have a kingdom
It will come
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